I have been a mum now for just over 10 months and it is still a new, frightning and fabulous experience. Our son, was born 7 weeks early and as much as I did not want to be pregnant any more(as it was basically so uncomfortable that I could not see myself carrying this monstrous weight anymore), i did not forsee that giving birth 7 weeks early was going to be a stressful as it was. Charlie was fine. He spent only a day in ITU and then he was down with me on the ward for 10 days before beign released on good behavoiur! We came home full of excitement and expectation and it was wonderful. Then reality set in. No longer did I have a nurse to take him away in the middle of the night for a feed, I did not have the same support network and I was basically having to teach my husband the little I knew, and make the immediate decisions, as, well I was his mum, I was the one who knew all the answers! The long sleepess nights, the constant feeding and crying and the fear that if I did anything wrong, he would die. I am sure that every new mum and dad has the same expereince, but this was happening to me, and I did not know when it was all going to end.
It was not long before I was crying along with Charlie and the doctors started to fear that I was going down the depression route. I balmed my baby for how I was feeling and could not understand why he hated me so much and why he just kept on crying?
We got through it though and he is now a huge bouncing little boy who loves everything, mostly stuff he is not allowed to have.
I want to use this blog to talk to other like minded mums and dads and to share the highs and lows of being a parent!
